aw man i wish i could help. fuck that’s a terrible situation, especially him being you’re first, so you can’t just forget about it..
it’s normal to be attracted to all different kinds of people, even when you’re with someone you’re going to find that there’ll always still be other people you’re attracted to
shit i’m sorry to hear. have you talked to anyone you know about it? and now have you two just went on like nothing happened?